song; Change .. H.E.R

So about 7 months ago now, I was collecting money for my kids father. I would also transfer it here and there so just keep it normal. One day, I thought I had gotten paid so I ran up you know? Nobody was helping with nothing ( nobody owe me shit ) so i thought yea let’s get it. So once I realized everything, I got scared, not of him but of the fact that I fucked up. I have very big pride issues and I always felt like I had to cover his shoes. No what, I had to hold that shit down. My biggest mistake is lying and not telling him, he found out and now he hates me. I ended up saying fuck it and got myself into a bigger mess smh. The only man I’ve ever truly loved has turned his back on me, dont love me dont fuck with me don’’t even wanna hear my voice. smh I’m really thinking about turning our kids over to him and leaving smh. He’s a better person than me, he can do everything without me, and my kids will be good .. I don’t know what to do anymore …. he blocked me and ye smhb 

@__hatedforeverr 

two days in a row … 

I promise from this day forward too never love again. If it’s not my children’s love? I don’t want it. 

dreams-into-reality:

angelinmotion:

when you fuck up, you have to actually say “i really fucked this up & it’s on me” in order to be better. there’s no room for projecting or acting like a victim. no room for excuses or acting like you don’t care. you have to actually grow the fuck up & take responsibility for every consequence. there’s no growth without accountability.

this.

I honestly needed too hear this . 

(via nostalgicrealities)

I’ll prob never forgive him to the lack of love shown on my worst day & I don’t even think I want too at this point. 

Sad part, nigga made sure HIS shit was handled smfh. I’m really over these fake ass friendships, romances and all that stupid ass shit. 

today, I found out a whole bunch of shit from my past that I anit fuxkin with .